SynopsisWhat happened then? What happened at that party last winter? Emily knows. She's one of the two people who can really tell what happened, who actually saw it with her own eyes. Sure, there have been rumors about what happened to Amanda Rolling. Some say she ran away. Some say her Daddy sent her to live with her rich relatives in Boston. But Emily knows that isn't what happened. She knows where Amanda really is.
But she'll never tell. Ever.
ExcerptOne year ago, my parents shipped me off to my grandparents' house. They told me I needed an attitude adjustment. They said they "didn't even know me anymore". They told me something changed in me ever since I got home from that stupid party at the end of Christmas break. When I left, I packed two suitcases. One had all of the warm clothing I owned, because Wisconsin is cold for a good part of the year, and the other was full of memories. Pictures in frames with shattered glass fronts, old ticket stubs, dried flowers, ripped posters, an old pair of jeans that belonged to Grace. The minute my grandpa's car stopped on their gravel road, I jumped from the backseat and immediately ran out to one of their many fields of barren land and ripped the dirt out in clods with my hands. I shoved that stupid suitcase full of The Old Me into the ground and covered it up. I haven't seen that suicase in three hundred and sixty five days.
The things in that suitcase meant nothing to me. I'm not the person in those pictures anymore, or the one who went to those movies and laughed with her friends while they threw popcorn at the screen, or picked those wild flowers by the docks of the High Water lake, or taped those posters to her walls with her best friends by her side. Or the one who zipped herself into those jeans, rolled up the hems because Grace was 4 inches taller than her, and partied all night in an abandoned mansion the night of the end-of-winter-break-party.
That person was gone She disappeared with Amanda Rolling on January fourth at 1:04 in the morning.
Something happened at that party. Something I have never told anyone about.